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Finished tearing down the warehouse barn that was attached to the flower shop, it wasn't horribly damaged in the fire but was in the way of the new shop. I have saved all the good materials out of it and will rebuild the barn at home though it will be a bit smaller. 

Concrete guys will be here on Monday to start getting the forms put in.

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The funniest thing about this particular signature is that by the time you realise it doesn't say anything it's to late to stop reading it.

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I don't really like to talk about it, but I finally mustered enough courage and will yesterday to set an appointment with my doctor today, as things have gotten pretty bad lately.

As expected, she prescribed some antidepressants. Hopefully they'll pull me out of this terrible "funk" I've been in for the past few months and bring back some energy needed to start enjoying things again and also help me finally land a job (I've missed several opportunities in the last month or two due to the state I'm in).

So if I seemed uninterested or not involved and not participating much in crew activities, that is/was the reason, as I've been avoiding even friends&family and there was hardly anything I actually enjoyed and did not have the energy/willpower for even basic stuff. There was an occasional "good day", but not that many.

If anyone remembers, I started a new career last summer (in a restaurant kitchen), which temporarly "fixed" a similar set of issues I was having last summer, but the stress of that particular job meant it was only temporarly and has actually made it worse in the long run.

So yeah, that's what I did today and it may sound funny/weird to most, but I'm actually feeling a little proud of myself. (anyone that has dealt with depression will probably understand this small "victory").

:)

 

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I'm really sorry to hear you're in that state @zmurko

It's a bold move going to see your doctor and also posting on  here. I was in a similar state myself a couple of years ago and really didn't think things would improve but I'd like you know that they will. So keep going, you'll get there too! 

It's horrible having an illness that prevents you from enjoying anything and makes even getting out of bed a struggle. Especially when doing things, especially being active, really helps the recovery process. Simply going for a 5 minute walk can be a real mood booster but is not an option when sometimes just putting on a pair of socks is a massive achievement! 

You've made an important first step towards your recovery. It may be a long process but you'll get there and it will be worth it in the end. Feel free to PM me if you ever want to discuss anything :)

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6 hours ago, zmurko said:

I don't really like to talk about it, but I finally mustered enough courage and will yesterday to set an appointment with my doctor today, as things have gotten pretty bad lately.

As expected, she prescribed some antidepressants. Hopefully they'll pull me out of this terrible "funk" I've been in for the past few months and bring back some energy needed to start enjoying things again and also help me finally land a job (I've missed several opportunities in the last month or two due to the state I'm in).

So if I seemed uninterested or not involved and not participating much in crew activities, that is/was the reason, as I've been avoiding even friends&family and there was hardly anything I actually enjoyed and did not have the energy/willpower for even basic stuff. There was an occasional "good day", but not that many.

If anyone remembers, I started a new career last summer (in a restaurant kitchen), which temporarly "fixed" a similar set of issues I was having last summer, but the stress of that particular job meant it was only temporarly and has actually made it worse in the long run.

So yeah, that's what I did today and it may sound funny/weird to most, but I'm actually feeling a little proud of myself. (anyone that has dealt with depression will probably understand this small "victory").

:)

 

I sure feel for you!

I've been FIGHTING depression for a bit. With being a caregiver for my Mom, losing her, fighting pain from military injuries and fighting with trying to sell my farm to RETARDED AZZWIPES, it's been one hell of a struggle. With more eyes on the Veteran hospital system these days, I got pretty quick help when I asked for help. Naturally, asking for help is the first and most critical part of getting better with depression.

Thankfully the most oppressive thing in my life, sale of my farm, is almost fully resolved and we will close in the next week. This will be a huge burden removed and I can move on to knock out other troublesome things in my life..............which there will ALWAYS be SOMETHING!

Take the meds, but keep close eye on your thoughts and don't hesitate to TELL SOMEONE if you have destructive thoughts! Just tackle ONE THING AT A TIME! Finish that one thing and move on. Looking at the big picture is not productive with depression and can be a huge contributor to your current situation.

 

Now, to take my own advice, I must go back outside and make some sawdust out of some trash trees preventing me from getting a rollback dumpster delivered so I can make further progress on my up coming sale and move. See......one damn thing at a time. Absolute must!

 

GOOD LUCK! Remember that you can ask for and ear to bend!!!!

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I only grow in living soil!
Because Fat Buds Matter!

Well..........that was stupid! I didn't eat very much at 5AM and went out and started the tree cutting. I was wondering why I was getting soooooooo tired after an hour. Yeah.....my blood sugar went to the basement. That was pretty silly!

I only grow in living soil!
Because Fat Buds Matter!

Bought a new floorjack so I can change and/or grease the wheel bearings and get new tires on my enclosed race trailer because it will have a new home with me closing on the sale of my farm on Wednesday and closing on the new place on Thursday!:wink:

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I only grow in living soil!
Because Fat Buds Matter!

Past couple days I been building a new yard barn, I got a blog in draft of the build cuz I am using all the un burned stuff from the old pole barn that was attached tot he flower shop to make it. Figured it might interest @ScottyB and any other crew carpenters. I would find it interesting how peeps in another country would build shit.

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The funniest thing about this particular signature is that by the time you realise it doesn't say anything it's to late to stop reading it.

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On 4/20/2016 at 5:39 AM, zmurko said:

I don't really like to talk about it, but I finally mustered enough courage and will yesterday to set an appointment with my doctor today, as things have gotten pretty bad lately.

As expected, she prescribed some antidepressants. Hopefully they'll pull me out of this terrible "funk" I've been in for the past few months and bring back some energy needed to start enjoying things again and also help me finally land a job (I've missed several opportunities in the last month or two due to the state I'm in).

So if I seemed uninterested or not involved and not participating much in crew activities, that is/was the reason, as I've been avoiding even friends&family and there was hardly anything I actually enjoyed and did not have the energy/willpower for even basic stuff. There was an occasional "good day", but not that many.

If anyone remembers, I started a new career last summer (in a restaurant kitchen), which temporarly "fixed" a similar set of issues I was having last summer, but the stress of that particular job meant it was only temporarly and has actually made it worse in the long run.

So yeah, that's what I did today and it may sound funny/weird to most, but I'm actually feeling a little proud of myself. (anyone that has dealt with depression will probably understand this small "victory").

:)

Hey, dude. I honestly wish you the best of luck. 

 

On my end, I regret leaving the hourly wage life behind. Fourteen hours today. 

On 4/20/2016 at 5:39 AM, zmurko said:

 

 

I've had quite the day! I no longer own a farm. I closed on the sale a few hours ago.

I also funded the buying of my new place, which I close on tomorrow.

A very good day except for one thing. I slipped in the shower and bruised some ribs. I don't think any are cracked or broken. The pain would be faaaaar worse, but it is bad enough to make me sweat! Gotta move and deal with tender ribs! LOL!.....ouch! It hurts to laugh!

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I only grow in living soil!
Because Fat Buds Matter!

2 hours ago, zztop911 said:

I've had quite the day! I no longer own a farm. I closed on the sale a few hours ago.

I also funded the buying of my new place, which I close on tomorrow.

A very good day except for one thing. I slipped in the shower and bruised some ribs. I don't think any are cracked or broken. The pain would be faaaaar worse, but it is bad enough to make me sweat! Gotta move and deal with tender ribs! LOL!.....ouch! It hurts to laugh!

Congratulations on the new place!  Time to rest up with a PS4 controller in hand. <_<

12 hours ago, omarcomin71 said:

Congratulations on the new place!  Time to rest up with a PS4 controller in hand. <_<

Wish I could rest. I did go to the ER after I found out I couldn't lay down without extreme pain. Yup! I fractured one rib and bruised two.

I only grow in living soil!
Because Fat Buds Matter!

Just about to go outside and replace the fluid temperature sensor in my transmission in my Super Duty truck. Dumb, but relatively easy to replace part. $150 worth of supplies to replace a $12 part! LOL!

I only grow in living soil!
Because Fat Buds Matter!

On 4/30/2016 at 8:09 AM, zztop911 said:

Just about to go outside and replace the fluid temperature sensor in my transmission in my Super Duty truck. Dumb, but relatively easy to replace part. $150 worth of supplies to replace a $12 part! LOL!

I don't know if saving over $200 was worth all the damn pain. Truck does run great though! Changed the tranny fluid,  both filters and reflashed the computers with my "Tow and Haul" tune. I had my econo tune in it before.  I forgot how well the truck ran and shifted with my "Tow and Haul"  installed! It will stay installed for a while given all the use of my race trailer for the next few weeks.

In a few minutes, I;m gonna tackle pulling the wheels and repacking the bearings on my race trailer. Thank god for impact guns!

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I only grow in living soil!
Because Fat Buds Matter!

After getting a fair amount of work done today on the move, I go Home Depot to get supplies for the move. I get about $370 worth  of stuff. Enough to have to carefully pack one of the heavy duty flat carts. I go to the Pro check out for more room and the clerk was unoccupied. I give it plenty of room from the counter so she can easily walk around the cart in all directions.

Well, I don't pull the cart into position to suit her.

"No! TURN IT AROUND!" "Move it that way so it doesn't fall on both of us!"

I start to tell her how many shipping boxes I have of each size in order from extra large to small, but she interrupts me with the "Speak to the hand"  gesture.

I begin to get very irritated!

"You screwed me up by the way you stacked everything."  and she goes off to get another cart. She gets a lumber cart, which in no way will it hold much of anything  on my cart.

"We will just have to move everything over."

I smiled and said "No 'we' won't. I'm going to Lowe's!" And I just walked out the door. I'm very pissed as I get to my truck. I stacked everything to fit on the cart and to be able to scan with minimal effort. I call the store, get a manager and proceed to tell him what transpired. Before I can say that I'll never walk into this store again, he asks me if the cart is still where I left it and if I will meet him at a register at the other end of the store for a 20% discount.

I say yes and meet him. He apologizes and another clerk checks me out in less that a minuite with his help and the clerk listening to me.

I get over $72 off my ticket!

I feel vindicated! : CRAZY :

 

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I only grow in living soil!
Because Fat Buds Matter!

Just sent an old girlfriend $1000 because she needs a place to stay until the end of the month when her Section 8 housing starts.:loser:

She's getting kicked out of a homeless center/crisis center because she didn't secure her medication and it was stolen by another "resident".: QUESTION :

I guess I'm the only stupid SOB in her life that's soft hearted enough to give her money! JESUS!!!!!!!!: GRIMACE :

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I only grow in living soil!
Because Fat Buds Matter!

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